Performance and Installation
PRISM (2025)
30 minutes of newly composed music through the 2025 Cedar Commissions. The music was derived from Akashic Visions, the color blue, the wisdom of light, and learning to love banished parts of my childhood self. Below is an excerpt of three songs from the performance from January 31, 2025.
Matt Olson (Robot Slide), Keys
Emily Kastrul (Sister Species), backup vocals
Lisa Harrigan (Lisa Frank), backup vocals
I Can See The Sky (2024)
A solo performance combining butoh, storytelling, song, and Akashic channeling that was a meditation tears, mortality, ancestry, and the will to live in the face of unimaginable and ineffable grief. Premiered at Red Eye Theater.
directed by Ellen Marie Hinchcliffe, movement direction from Masa Kawahara, lighting by Heidi Eckwall, Tech Wizardry by Peter Morrow.
photo by Bruce Silcox
photo by bruce silcox
A Dream of Brightness (2022)
Collaborator: Diver Van Avery
In A Dream of Brightness (Try, Try, Try, Try), A.P. Looze surrenders to presence to conjure a living prayer. With their voice, bass, and looping pedal, A.P. will leave behind perfection and agenda, and instead stand in a pillar of light to channel messages of love from the Akashic Records. The Akashic Records are a sphere of energy/plane of consciousness that hold insights about the infinite, unconditional love that is available to all of us. Through asking questions and receiving/channeling answers and playing in the field of Akashic insights, this performance-prayer is an offering to the highest good of the present moment.
This activity is made possible by the voters of Minnesota through a grant from the Metropolitan Regional Arts Council, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund.
photo by Bruce Silcox
Heart Strings: A Beading Ritual (2021)
Heart Strings: A Beading Ritual was a month-long contemplative and embodied ritual conducted in solitude and with others intended to foster connection to the body and the earth using specific parts of the rose. It was created through the 2019-2021 Jerome-funded Art(ist) on the Verge Fellowship.
In the formless days of the pandemic, I began stringing rosehips. It turned into a private ritual: first soaking the rosehips to soften them, and then ending the day by stringing them onto strings of various lengths. Prayers, mantras and songs came to me through the mundane act, and I was moved to tears, thinking of my lineage, my body, our collective body, the hardship of the pandemic, and the trauma and genocide this country was founded on. In essence, I was tending to the sacred work of grief. Without realizing it, I had recreated an ancestral practice that was made clear to me later through research of the rosary.
For Heart Strings, I brought my materials into a solitary studio in the backyard of a friend in the neighborhood where I live. I combined days of stringing beads alone, along with opening up this practice to others. I invited people to come sit with me and shared simple instructions about how to string the rosehips, then let the beading itself guide the interaction. When it felt right, I asked how people connect to time, ancestors, or descendants. Participants could either take the string of rosehips home with them or leave them in the space. As the strung rosehips accumulated, I hung them in the small studio, creating an installation inspired by the month of shared creation and reflection that was open for public viewing. A series of songs (sample below) were written through the duration of the practice and accompanied the installation.
photos by Bruce Silcox
C'Mon Baby Stroke It! The Tennis Musical (Where Love Is Everything) (2021)
I played tennis for 20 years and quit when I came out as trans. I wanted to reclaim the sport in an embodied way that celebrated my identity. This 30 minute film is a collection of original songs and music videos inspired by pop punk celebrating love, queer sexuality, trans embodiment, and sobriety through the game of tennis.
The Ways I Wished to Love Her (2019)
A piece exploring the path toward healing from narcissistic wounding. Performed and created through Naked Stages at Pillsbury House + Theater. Below are excerpts from this work.
Foray Softly (2018)
In Foray Softly I carried the audience along a metaphorical mushroom foray through memories of my alcoholic mycologist of a father, my obsession with The Titanic, and Celine Dion to express the disorienting ego death that occurs when breaking from the legacy of intergenerational trauma. Below are excerpts of this work. This piece was produced as a part of The Guthrie's Solo Emerging Artist Celebration in 2018.
God Made Me Crooked (2017)
God Made Me Crooked is a comedic homiletic quasi-Catholic liturgy, interweaving the life of my transgender Great Aunt–who was a Catholic nun for 70 years– with trees, her love of waterfalls, Hermeticism, my survival of a suicide attempt and my own gender to show the queer lineage I carry and my path toward a spiritual life. Produced through Patrick's Cabaret and Queertopia.
accompanying illustrated script
The Grief Experiments (2016)
In this piece I am spelunker of the stages of grief, sharing the convoluted, humorous and painful Marie Kondo-inspired, Ken doll-embodied journey through sobriety in the aftermath of my friend’s suicide